Hello friend,

I'm going to get personal here about why I am so driven to help people who are on the brink of breakthroughs in their personal, functional, and spiritual lives.

It's obvious that, at "this time on the clock of the world" ⏰, if we're not doomed to destruction, we are at least compelled to massive and meaningful CHANGE.

So let's get into it. Who must we become? And how do we best hold those changes?

Going Beyond Our "Selves" & The Relationship Between Collapse and Awakenings

In the story of life on planet Earth today: What must we become in order to aptly respond to the requirements of surviving and thriving in our times?

Come up with your own answer. And write it down if you wish.

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To crib a passage from my dear colleague Jordan Lyon's article Modernity: The Mother Tree on Medium:

As Bayo Okomalafe calls it, we are in need of an “ontological mutiny” — a revolution that discovers ways of being and knowing beyond modernity, beyond this cultural contexts, mental models, and foundational belief systems that modernity envelopes us into.

That is what our kin and ancestors, mother earth and spirit, and all of life are needing from us — a radical shift in our ways of being and knowing, something beyond what we can even imagine while living within modernity.

To this I say:

Yes. 🙌 All signs point to Yes. 🎱🔮 Our kin and ancestors NEED this from us.

It's HIGH TIME already to "branch out." 🎋 To branch out and become something beyond what we were raised and conditioned by the dominant culture to be.

Because: our "stories of self" and the meanings we gave things during the first part of our lives will catastrophically fail in our lifetimes. These stories will not be able to carry us safely to the other shore of the crises of our times.

Don't make the dangerous mistake of leaning on inaccurate "stories of self" when you're faced with a survival challenge. 😵

Surviving will mean adapting now, and that necessitates "going beyond" our old order-nary (ordinary) ways. 😵‍💫

Confrontation and Evolution

In my experience, the need to shed a false self can come urgently and catastrophically, blind-siding you. Suddenly the world is different, and it cannot go back to the way it had been. Suddenly your reliable map of the world fails. Suddenly you are confronted with the shadows in your previous self, and an integration crisis takes over everything else going on in your life.

It always comes with confrontation. Confronting an unexpected reality, and thus, being forced to confront your inner map—the specific beliefs and behaviors that got you into this situation. Confrontation = "the only way out is through."

Confrontation is not inherently good or bad, actually. Insight processes (also called revelations) are intrinsically blissful events, because, according to its nature, Life rewards learning. Yet the mental-emotional adaptation and the physical integration processes in the aftermath of an awakening are usually no less than BRUTAL. 😩 Imagine how painful it is to witness yourSELF (your entire narrative of who/what you are) dying, repeatedly, within just ONE little lifetime? It's not unlike the myth of Prometheus' daily duress, watching yourself die a horrific death only to be reborn and do it all over again.

I know this terrain well. Since my first unsolicited spiritual experience at age 23, which then radically destroyed and reorganized the next several years of my life, I have undergone several significant and catastrophic revolutions to my belief-and-behavior system. It is why today I'm a master of what I dub apocalypse medicine—how to allow meaning-making ordeals to make you stronger instead of weaker. This embodied, intuitive expertise is why I'm a qualified guide to navigating the process of major breakdowns AND breakthroughs at any scale—from personal to collective to systemic.

When an apocalypse is upon you, it entails being rapidly stripped of your illusions. That's the nature of it. And apocalypse is a natural phenomenon, belonging to natural living systems.

And guess what? Your entire worldview—your "map of the world"—from which you make meaning day in and day out? This is also a natural living system. And thus your worldview is subject to natural phenomena. Like evolution.

🌏We are being called upon to EVOLVE FOR GOOD.🌏

is the overstatement of the year. 🗓️

I'm just saying, y'all...

In the inevitable CONFRONTATION of our failed ways that ALL of us face in our lifetimes... why not take the OPPORTUNITY to become more of who and what we truly are, NOW?

In the impending COLLAPSE of our systems of meaning... why not embrace making everything we do MEAN MORE, NOW?

The most enduring part of who we really are will withstand the crisis—no matter the crisis.

So, let's cultivate this enduring core of ourselves NOW. Doing so will help us survive crises in general in the future.

It's this self who we ought to carry forward in this broken world.

Forging the Needed Selves: The Embodiers Circle

After my first spontaneous spiritual experience at age 23*, I was desperately lost and severely alone for a period of years. Very few friends or family around me could relate with me, and some even pathologized me. I needed space-holding and mentorship, and the little I was able to access of that absolutely transformed my outcomes. I was actively confronting a false story of self dying inside me, and I needed allies in the form of others who could empathize, and who had the courage to confront my illusions with me.

The Embodiers Circle is what I would have absolutely dreamed of to help me at the time. A peer group of mostly womxn coming into their spiritual power, offering witness, wisdom, and their own lived experiences to help guide me, in a reciprocal format?

Y'all. This. would. be. A DREAM.

Seriously, I cannot imagine a more nurturing environment in which to experience the unstoppable unfolding of massive self change. This is the difference between a personal revolution that feels like a goddamned awful apocalypse or catastrophe, versus one that feels like a blissful, deepening, life-changing revelation.

The Circle makes it possible: this ancient technology of us coming together to witness one another in our becoming. ⭕ This is how we are able to HOLD revolution without being torn completely apart.

And soon the Dream will be a dream come true. 🕯️🧎✨

I'm organizing the Embodiers Circle for all of us who are on our own unique edge of greater change. We confront this brink of greater change on behalf of a genuine greater good. And we call in one another to wrap around us. Not to insulate us from our illusions, but to help us free ourselves from them and bring our new, integrated self into the world.

If you're on this edge, you'll feel it in my words. Please go over this edge and into the Embodiers Circle with me, where we will catch you like a net, and help you move and meaning-make through your change ordeal, to the other side.

As of today there are 11 seats remaining in the first-ever Embodiers Circle. Enrollment ends March 26. Join today by clicking "Embodier Member" to begin.

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Your bodhi buddy,

C.

*PS - Much more to come with regard to stories of my catastrophic, unsolicited awakenings between the ages of 20 and 23, as these events form the true "origin story" behind why I've built Fractal Praxis. 📡 Stay tuned!

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