That's All, Folks
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The WEWS have gotten shaken up recently. And with them, I have too.
I no longer feel this format serves my goals for Fractal Praxis at this time.
It was a noble experiment and perfectly good arbitrary commitment to launch the WEWS the first week of January, 2025. It made me commit to putting out something, at least, every week for the past 35 weeks.
But I think I am ready to write, produce, and craft some bigger (and grander) offerings.
The Burgeoning Theory
A few weeks ago, I felt a clear shift indicating that I ought to focus on writing the Fractal Praxis theory—the claims underpinning the ideas I present under the label "Fractal Praxis." As I discussed last week, Fractal Praxis is a premise I've arrived at... but one it will take me a lot more work to systematically justify to you, dear reader.
Fractal Praxis indeed a logical system. I have spent my whole adult life comparing and vetting claims about what is true, and systematically adopting, testing, and refining my views.
However, I am not equipped to perform as a scholar and philosopher in the public sphere. My logic, and its tellings, are organic—much more in the modality of a priestess or prophet, than a professor. (Although notice the root of the word professor as "one who professes...")
My dear colleague and dojo instructor Deacon posted this clip which brought me some relief. It helped me realize I'm not alone in my struggle as a mystic who's spent the better part of her life developing direct relationship with Reality... then struggling with how to translate that to others who don't or won't take that path, themselves.
For the past weeks I've efforted, and made progress, on writing out my logical claims. As depicted here.
However, I no longer believe the weekly WEWS are the right container for allowing me the focus and discipline suited to producing epic philosophical works. Instead, I need structures and flows more appropriate to writing a book—a large set of texts. The ephemerality and short turnaround of the WEWS conflicts with this goal.
The Live Priestess
And then there's live, oratory, performative, and hosting modalities that call to me—and draw others to me, too.
Earlier this year I shelved offering events and ceremonies entirely, so as to invest more focus into theory-writing. Yes, I have limited energy for Fractal Praxis each week (as I earn my primary living through other means). So I must obviously constrain what I put my energy into. On the other hand: I must be especially careful as a priestess to not proceed down inauthentic roads.
Lately I'm remembering that in my work, I must be careful to only move from aliveness to aliveness. The LIVE transmission and synthesis in the moment, from extraordinary presence, is the truest of my offerings. When I speak from my aliveness, I help us synchronize with the truth. It's that simple, that ancient, and that sacred.
To "perform" my truth is to present myself in modes and media that amplify my aliveness—so as to spark greater connection with your own. The oratory tradition—for all its rapturous powers—is clearly a stellar fit for me. 💫 After all, reunification is rapture—and, goddess willing, I can help remind/induce/seduce you into it.
There is organic demand for me as a prophetic orator, a weirdifying poet, performance artist, and "priestess" (which is my preferred all encompassing term for someone who hosts a ceremony and maintains the "frequency" of it for the group).
The priestess persona will better personify my liberation, you see. I as process, as channel, is moving and illuminating. My own practices of ritual and stream-of-consciousness sense-making are sensual, enlivening, and at times ✨brilliant.✨ My magical power is synthesis. 🌀
I as channel become like an empty vessel for intelligence and aliveness to flow seamlessly through, flecked like glitter only slightly by my personality. As channel, I model to you an alternative path for your own being... and through hypnotic truth-telling that induces spontaneous contact with wholeness, I open portals.
So I'm going to bring this modality back online. But not in the casual form of weekly WEWS... instead, in crafted, resounding, full-self-engaging CEREMONIES—like those of Holisma (offered 2 years ago). Holisma was a six part experimental "mass" with each event focused on a single theme observed in nature, and engaged with at all (fractal) scales. ...I wanna do something like that again, centered on a more in-depth, extensive, and carefully crafted spoken word piece (or "sermon"). These offerings will be of higher production value, and will be equally interactive, intuitive, and contemplative.
Because, I have a LOT of commentary to offer for these times—AND a strong, frustrating habit of holding those opinions to myself. But if I'm going to make a more splashy presentation of my wisdom, I'd rather it be painstakingly curated. I'd rather the signal hit the mark resoundingly for you, like a bullet hitting a bell. 🔔
I want to be, and to model, the well 🪣 —tapped in to the source of Life, pouring out draughts—not drips or drabs—for you to feel quenched. That fractal Wellness permeating, reminding, awakening, enlivening... and offering a genuine remedy to our fractured, alienated, sorrow-sodden modern lives.
🗣️ So may it be; it already is. May we offer our attention at the altar of Life—and be rewarded. 🕯️🐉🕯️
Compost the Unsupportable
I lead an emergent life—one vulnerable to massive shifts in meaning at all times.
At this time, the WEWS is not supportable. It, like forms before it, shall be composted, and its component energy freed up into new media forms.
When we attune to life as built of processes, we get more comfortable dismantling structures of selves that once served us, if they do no more. So allow me to thank these WEWS for the form they took, the life they had and the life they gave and inspired in others. Thank you for your service. You may now return back to the Earth from whence you came.
Beloved readers/listeners: I will still be publishing here on this newsletter platform, but on an irregular basis. I release you (and us) from the spell of the rhythmic Wednesdays at 6:30pm ritual. (Likely it will re-emerge in deeper, subtler form.) ...Thank you for accompanying me to this beat thus far. 🥁
My ask for reciprocity comes in the form of "buy me a coffee" ☕: by becoming a paid subscriber for $8/month, you will gain pre-publishing access to the Fractal Praxis book & coursework that I am actively developing. The coursework will include guides for practitioners to engage more deeply with life and its patterns—inner and outer—and ways to hearten and intensify your inherent sensemaking as path to wholeness with Life. Please support the work of Fractal Praxis for $8 a month, by becoming an Engager member today.
With love and solidarity,
C.